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March 19, 2010
March 19, 2010
After a long time . i have decide to return to you .... blogger . lol . I need to release my emotions from time to time and the best place is where else apart from blogger ?
I know i have friends , family and girlfriend .
Appearently its really hard for you to tell your friend how things are going on in life ....... Family ? everyone has everyone problem so lets not add on the weight onto them because i know they wont give me any better advise as i am always the one giving them advise . lol .
Thats why people say "a doctor can cure his patient but not cure himself" or in mandarin "能医者不自医" wonder if blogger even be able to show it in FOREGIN language ., tried it a few times but never worked . Lets give it another try .
I know i got a girlfriend i can talk to and shes perfect to talk to and stuff ..... but ..... how are you going to talk to your girlfriend about it ? its hard . writting it in blogger fews different , because even when she reads it , i just feel that reading it is better then saying it .
Here we go,
Normally , after a arguement , i will do self reflection and think of what is going on and try to correct the faults that cause the arguement . But after yesterday arguement , i got lost . its just like i don't know where to start to think about . Sometimes during an arguement , i just dont see that i am in the wrong , but i dont see that baby is in the wrong too .
Its just about both parties giving in i guess . If i look back in all my arguement , i always come to a conclusion . which is "if i just gave in , everything would have been fine"
Hate arguement so much , waste time and energy . i mean come on ..... which couple likes to argue ? it hurts both party and harm the relationship .
Honestly , i love my girlfriend a lot . like A LOT kind of LOTSSSSSSS . Sometimes i really dont want to argue because it hurts me more then anything and it always makes me feel really guilty all night and all day . Its worst then committing a crime , i dont think i will feel as guilty like that when i kill somebody .
Hurting somebody you love this much , definitely not a fun thing .
But the fact is ...... the more i try to say something not to argue , the worst the arguement become and if i dont say anything , its the same result . and in arguement , you dont think rationally , why do you guys think so many couple ended divorcing ? because they were not thinking rationally when they were argueing .
Sometimes i get piss , i just want to try to tell you how i am feeling . but when i am piss ...... my attitude change . like really bad . thats like something in the blood of the family . when we get piss , we kill each other and i am like the most clam (how the heck do you spell it) person in the family . and i go that piss . just imagine when everyone is argueing in the family . From my memory , sometimes we end up fighting , not so much as we grow up because the 2 guys in the family is 2 BIG/FAT .
Yes . i am emotional and i am easily confuse . Just an arguement can keep me awake for the whole night . i am becoming like my mum and i always say she need anti-depression pills . (-.-") here comes E-KAMA .
Its hard to find someone we love and trust .
So yes . From now on ...... Giving in is the key .
The fact is (from past experience , i still think argueing is a better way , giving in is like holding everything in your heart and its really uncomfortable , argueing lets you speak freely and how you feel so both parties can change for the better)
But if you love someone this much , would you rather pick to hurt her ? or just feel uncomfortable ?
You guys should know the answer .
i know i am abit demanding at times but yes , guys have their days tooo ....... guys does not have PMS , but we do have ES (Emotional Stress) .
Ok , this is getting abit long .
and i still got law readings .
BACK to saving myself from Uni .
*Sorry* lao po !!!!!
From: your dumb lao gong .
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