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February 21, 2009
February 21, 2009
Today ..... Hmmmm .... Dunno .
Woke up , then my sis say go to town to have lunch . so i was like ok . then i went into vodafone to visit cyrus , asking him what time does work start on monday . 9 to 4 . 7 hours work day . i would say its shorter then my past 2 job .
Then baby text ask me "what if i move to Australia" at that moment , that question was so hard , that it knock me so hard in the head . then in my heart , i panic . hmmmm . 1st time i ever felt like this . i panic . a lot of things came to my mind . i wonder what if there is no you by my side . what would chris be ? chris would no longer have a smile on his face anymore .
I really love you baby , i can't imagine my life one second without you . In my heart . i am shouting hard saying DON'T GOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but all along i know that moving to Oz has always been your dream . You have always wanted to go . so i didn't know what to do . i don't know if i should be selfish and hold you back . or let you go to your dream place . I dunno .
So i told my sister to bring my cousin to go see computer and take the chance to go to your shop to have a look at you *sigh* half way to the shop . ADT call saying that my house alarm went off and ask if they should send someone over to have a look , because i really need to see you , so i told them to send someone over and i call my cousin to went and have a look too . i feel so relief after seeing you . my heart is much more down to earth . it feels like it is more down to the ground to see you around . *sigh* i miss you so much as i type this . even thou i am chattign to you on msn now .
*is not the influence of alcohol after the party , but ........ i really really really love you*
Every i love you i mention to you , i really mean it . you are one girl that i wish i can spend the restt of my life with . today question just prove it more . i really panic .
Baby , i know i am being selfish . i dunno if i meet you , i would be able to let it out of my mouth to ask you this question . So i figure , i will type it on our block . i know its really a selfish quesion . but i hope u understand . i can give in to everything . but this time , please allow me to be selfish .
Can you please stay ???? DON'T GO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at least until we finish University , i promise till then , i will go over with you . no mater what happens .
i cant help myself but keep thinking that you won't be around in new zealand . its always in my mind . all the time . Thinking about it , i keep having tears in my eye *sigh*
You know how serious i am about you . i am too emotional aint i ????
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