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February 19, 2009
February 19, 2009
hmmm .....
its 117am . i have been trying to sleep for the last 1 hour . and yet . i can't seem to fall asleep . things are going in my mind . as in what have i done wrong and what have i exactly done right . conclusion was , i have done most of the things wrong .
Sometimes , whatever i think , is right to me , and its not right on the others .
I don't know . Maybe its just different aspect of caring and concern for someone else . for me , i look in every aspect . i will try my very best to give the best .
for example : lets say , me and a group of friends are going out to eat lunch or whatever it is . They will suggest a place , and if anyone at all from the group said something is bad from that place , i will say it out .
However , most of the time , nobody likes that comment . They might think that i am commenting on every place they suggest that the place its not nice . but yeah . thats my form of concern . i myself can eat anything , bring me to the crappiest place u know and i will still eat it but yeah , but yeah .
I don't know . i am really confuse right now . i am a very simple guy . i wan the best for the person i love , i just wan her to be happy and enjoy everything we do together . Which recently ..... don't turn out very well .
Lets say if you are going to watch a movie with your girlfriend , well , Take yourself as me . your girlfriend don't understand mandarin AND you want her to enjoy the movie . to me .... movie is something that we should enjoy in . we should be going into a movie that speaks the language that we don't understand and read the subtitle .
In your mind , you will think that you wan her to enjoy , so you want to watch a movie that has a language that she understand , so she dun have to stress her eye on the pathetic subtitle down on the bottom of the screen .
Most you the people will do that . don't they ?
Maybe its just my own thinking about this . i should not enforce it on others too . but yeah . Sometimes suggestions are good . and i guess .... most of the time . its bad . no matter what purpose it is for . sometimes its just better to go along with the flow .
13 minutes down this blog . my eyes is still wide open . i don't think i will be able to sleep at all tonight . i guess i will just have to sleep it off tomorrow .
How i wish , there is someone around at this time , that i can pick up my mobile and ring up to now .
Ok , i am gonna stop . Watery eyes and few drop of tears again . 3 nites now . in a week . hmmm . Maybe am just too emotional . But i guess .... Nevermind now , its not important no more :)
GO BACK AND TRY TO SLEEP !!!!!!! i should be fine in the morning .
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