February 24, 2009

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
its 5.22
lol
and i am tired
LOL
did nothing today
and am tired

i feel like eating
well i ate all day 2day

haha
im waiting till 5.30 so i can watch home and away

DAMN logged on to Trademe... and someone buy out the COMLAW101 text book.. grrrr....
haha
cant belive uni start next.. and im gona be such a loner....sad sad

mmm baby still has his training at Vodafone.... lol..
vodafone wooot wooot.. mmm wow the sky suddenly turned dark..wow not dark..but the sun has just boom...no sun light... haha.. i duno...

mm i am thinking about the pack of tim tams thats sitting in the fridge.. should i eat
shoulld i eat
haha
im such a pig..

APPARENTLY coz my baby say i AM HEAVY...

sad sad'''''.. but i will continue to eat... and become overly OBESE.,,,, sexy right??im bringing sexy back!!!''..mmm kk kk not to mock the fat ppl... haha

hmmm gotta prepare some pasta and boil up some egg... gna make pasta salad tonight..
i wonda what mum wants me to cook for dinner
.. Chicken? there is a whole chicken in the fridge....lol what can i do with that??
yesterday i made chicken soup with that preserved lemon...

so what today???
dingdongdingdong.. baby just text,..... wait.. lemme check my phone
LOL... some one is happy he's off work...LOL

well
its 5.30 now..home and away is on...
i will watch and eat tim tams at the same time.. YUP YUP

ciao for now

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February 21, 2009

Sometimes i really wish you know that to me , nothing else matter more then YOU .

i also wan you to know that relationship is not about fairness . so what if its not fair for me that i have to go to australia because of you . It doesn't matter where it is , as long as i am with you .

I don't know . i am LOST right now . REALLY LOST .

Something i used to feel really safe with ...... i don't feel safe anymore . *Sigh* it just seems that ... it can disappear anytime . i don't even know how much i actually meant to you . I wish you can tell me how much i mean to you .

How i wish you could just tell me to go to Australia with you , even when i told you that i will go with you . Don't you know that I DON'T CARE WHERE I AM , as long as i can be with you .

Sometimes i wish you can understand that relationship is not about fairness , its about willingness .

Willingness to give in ,
willingness to give up for the one you love ,
Willing to do whatever just to keep your love ones by your side ,
Willing to do whatever it takes to be with your loves one .

You don't know ..... you just don't know how it feels when i think of you leaving . even thou it is a talking topic just for now . BUT i can tell you right now . i am TEARING and TEARING and STILL TEARING .

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 10:51 PM

today went to work..
and the oddest conversation came up between me, my mum and DAD.. see DAD in BIIIIGG LETTERS... coz its soo rare my my dad to join in me and my mum conversation...i'm blues i always butt into theirs...

well anywho... there is this opportunity to go over to Aus...for my parents.. i mean... its reallly goood.. and yeah i knw my mum really wants to go... but we have never heard what my dad thought... so all of a sudden my dad goes " I have given thought, and going to Aus is not bad." well it started coz my mum was saying my bro wnt be able to finish uni..so why let him dragg his years out...

so my mum and dad was thinking... let my bro NOT go uni..(oomg can u belive that????) and go do business with them in Aus....

BUT... mums dont want to leave me here.. infact she dnt want to leave my sis here too..but since she HAHA married.. she really cant do anything... so mum try convince me to go too... and DAD..can u belive???..

well i did want to go aus after i graduate... coz NZ is such a donkey's butt... its sooo crappy.... and Aus has better opportunities.... but that was b4 i went AU...

so i text baby and asked him...what if i move to aus... and we had a bit of disccussion...

but i still want to study in NZ... i dont want to transfer to another university.. i only initially wanted to move after i finish my studies.. and i told my mum very very clear that i wanted to stay in NZ to finish my studies.. but my mum cant force me to move.. hahahahahaha...

so baby dont be too worried...

but i kinda feel stink..that i gna move and kinda... left u out...

what have u wanted...
where do u want to live after u graduate..

haha baby.. and i wouldnt say this is my "dream"... haha

anyways

my baby came and visit
haha i saw 2 ppl cross the road.. but i was in such a daze.. i see but didnt see.. like see but not really concentrate..and it was BABY..haha.. and his cuttte cousin... hehehe.. ..

but oysters and haha meant to be scallops turn to snapper..wahaha...

anyways if u eat...that ok... baby eat more.. u eat like a snail...
wahaha

anywhooos...

i will stop for now haha

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 9:54 PM

Today ..... Hmmmm .... Dunno .

Woke up , then my sis say go to town to have lunch . so i was like ok . then i went into vodafone to visit cyrus , asking him what time does work start on monday . 9 to 4 . 7 hours work day . i would say its shorter then my past 2 job .

Then baby text ask me "what if i move to Australia" at that moment , that question was so hard , that it knock me so hard in the head . then in my heart , i panic . hmmmm . 1st time i ever felt like this . i panic . a lot of things came to my mind . i wonder what if there is no you by my side . what would chris be ? chris would no longer have a smile on his face anymore .

I really love you baby , i can't imagine my life one second without you . In my heart . i am shouting hard saying DON'T GOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but all along i know that moving to Oz has always been your dream . You have always wanted to go . so i didn't know what to do . i don't know if i should be selfish and hold you back . or let you go to your dream place . I dunno .

So i told my sister to bring my cousin to go see computer and take the chance to go to your shop to have a look at you *sigh* half way to the shop . ADT call saying that my house alarm went off and ask if they should send someone over to have a look , because i really need to see you , so i told them to send someone over and i call my cousin to went and have a look too . i feel so relief after seeing you . my heart is much more down to earth . it feels like it is more down to the ground to see you around . *sigh* i miss you so much as i type this . even thou i am chattign to you on msn now .

*is not the influence of alcohol after the party , but ........ i really really really love you*

Every i love you i mention to you , i really mean it . you are one girl that i wish i can spend the restt of my life with . today question just prove it more . i really panic .

Baby , i know i am being selfish . i dunno if i meet you , i would be able to let it out of my mouth to ask you this question . So i figure , i will type it on our block . i know its really a selfish quesion . but i hope u understand . i can give in to everything . but this time , please allow me to be selfish .

Can you please stay ???? DON'T GO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at least until we finish University , i promise till then , i will go over with you . no mater what happens .

i cant help myself but keep thinking that you won't be around in new zealand . its always in my mind . all the time . Thinking about it , i keep having tears in my eye *sigh*

You know how serious i am about you . i am too emotional aint i ????

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February 20, 2009

Woops .

Today is ..... Friday 20th Feb . feel so weird not being able to see my lao po today . It is normally on Saturday and Sunday that i don't see you . Haha . Anyway my lao po !

I MISS YOU VERY MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha . Well . i was looking thru photos on my phone . then i realise . well , for those who have not see me with glasses on before . here is your chance .

Waha . Its lao po glasses by the way . i have PERFECT eye . =x . but some how , the glasses don't look blurry to me . lol . but baby eye is only 0.5 anyway . lol . its fine i guess . if not it just mean that i need glasses . LMAO . How nice . taken at starbucks too . LMAO . Before my interview .

Today . at 141pm . Mattew call . i can even remember his 1st sentence "hi Chris , this is Mattew calling from DS wireless , i am calling to congrets you on your successful application for DS Wireless" LMAO . YES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JOB !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Job = Moolah = Can feed lao po !!!!!

Starting on monday !!!!!

At that point . the 1st thing i tot of was surprising not about the job , but about my lao po . lol . you just flash up on my mind . *Sigh* Miss you much .

Yesterday , went to New Market with lao po . WOW . my 1st time on a train ride since my 4 years in New Zealand . lol . Damn . the train in New Zealand is Slow , but .... it so much nicer to the train compared to singapore .

LOOK !!!!! Train ticket . lol . such old school country isn;t it ? lol . well . i am loving it . lol .

When to New Market . Walk around for a little while . then wanted to go eat . OMG . got cheated . Walk a whole round to find the shop when can just cross the road . lol . Damn . lol . But since he got me a job . i will forgive and remember it =x

The worst thing is , when i found the shop , there is a power cut at New Market . so .... we ended up eating AIR . lol . Catch the bus back to town since we are not sure if the train would work since there is a power cut , the bus is like faster then the train . lol .

Watch a Chinese movie call "if you are the One" such a crack up movie . HIGHLY RECOMMENDED for people who likes comedy . lol . and there were only 5 people watch the movie .

Damn white people , just don't wan to learn another language . Think of it ...... We chinese know english , well , almost every Asian know english and do they know Mandarin or Cantonese ? No . such a pity . I pity them at times and the worst thing is they are looking down on us . lol . when they are stupid . Shitty people .

Oh well . wahaha .

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUACK MUACK MUACK MUACK MUACK MUACK !!!!!!

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 9:35 PM

February 19, 2009

hmmm .....

its 117am . i have been trying to sleep for the last 1 hour . and yet . i can't seem to fall asleep . things are going in my mind . as in what have i done wrong and what have i exactly done right . conclusion was , i have done most of the things wrong .

Sometimes , whatever i think , is right to me , and its not right on the others .

I don't know . Maybe its just different aspect of caring and concern for someone else . for me , i look in every aspect . i will try my very best to give the best .

for example : lets say , me and a group of friends are going out to eat lunch or whatever it is . They will suggest a place , and if anyone at all from the group said something is bad from that place , i will say it out .

However , most of the time , nobody likes that comment . They might think that i am commenting on every place they suggest that the place its not nice . but yeah . thats my form of concern . i myself can eat anything , bring me to the crappiest place u know and i will still eat it but yeah , but yeah .

I don't know . i am really confuse right now . i am a very simple guy . i wan the best for the person i love , i just wan her to be happy and enjoy everything we do together . Which recently ..... don't turn out very well .

Lets say if you are going to watch a movie with your girlfriend , well , Take yourself as me . your girlfriend don't understand mandarin AND you want her to enjoy the movie . to me .... movie is something that we should enjoy in . we should be going into a movie that speaks the language that we don't understand and read the subtitle .

In your mind , you will think that you wan her to enjoy , so you want to watch a movie that has a language that she understand , so she dun have to stress her eye on the pathetic subtitle down on the bottom of the screen .

Most you the people will do that . don't they ?

Maybe its just my own thinking about this . i should not enforce it on others too . but yeah . Sometimes suggestions are good . and i guess .... most of the time . its bad . no matter what purpose it is for . sometimes its just better to go along with the flow .

13 minutes down this blog . my eyes is still wide open . i don't think i will be able to sleep at all tonight . i guess i will just have to sleep it off tomorrow .

How i wish , there is someone around at this time , that i can pick up my mobile and ring up to now .

Ok , i am gonna stop . Watery eyes and few drop of tears again . 3 nites now . in a week . hmmm . Maybe am just too emotional . But i guess .... Nevermind now , its not important no more :)

GO BACK AND TRY TO SLEEP !!!!!!! i should be fine in the morning .

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 1:17 AM

February 17, 2009

Tuesday..gone and almost over..

today went and see my baby.. its hard we can never really have any 'us' time together.. live so far away and yeah.. just always in town.. uni etc..
WELL i went today.. and i 'claimed' my Valentine gift.. not claim haha... recieve..

this is what baby got me!!!

A PUZZLE!!!.. omg a puzzle in a frame... soooo sweet!!

Its of beauty and the beast too!!.. hehe

baby put the puzzle to gether all by himself... and yes its huge!!! wow... thanks baby... i love it... its such a sweet gift..XOXO

anyways... i fell aslep.and woke up and found myself only... went to see where baby was.. he was cooking me lunch heheheh...thanks babe...steam egg YUM...

today was a good day..but also tiring... last night didnt get much sleep..so was tired the entire day.. haha but it was nice spending time with my baby..

tomorow hunnie got interview!!! GOOD LUCK!!!! u will definately do well!!!

Aja aja Fighting!!

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 9:19 PM

February 15, 2009

Today is Sunday .

Well , woke up totally not in the mood for anything . i dunno why . but yeah .

i am feeling ok .

People can realise that life is so much more fun if they learn to let things go . However , some people are just retarded . They grumble and grumble non stop about life . but they are the one that walk themself into .

Like me ...... am over it .

Accounting 101 is tomorrow . i was planning to study my ass off today . but i dunno why i can't study at all . because i dun have the mood for anything at all .

Well , good luck to myself for tomorrow exam .

i have a weird dream last night thou . kept waking up last night .

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 1:28 PM

February 14, 2009

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY !!

Well . its February 14 today and yes ! it is valentine day . what can be worst in valentine day then rain . Imagine all the planning that has been put in a few days or months back . haha . Imagine those people who doesn't have a partner and in the cold weather . how sad isn't it ?

This image was taken when i was in the car while going to give baby a surprise visit . were you surprise baby ? haha . told u that i would not be able to go . BUT how can i not ? its valentine day , no matter what , i have to see you :) *Missing you so much as i type*

Arrive at your shop , so happy to see your smile . Warm up my cold cold heart even with the rain :(

This rose was taken in the rain from my window . Its the nicest from all the rose that is outside my house that we plant . Because i can't send you real rose , so i pxt you this rose . Wonder if baby receive it . But when i ask you . you said u didn't receive . bleah . pxt down again . hmmmm . Upload onto Blogger now , hope you like it !!!!!!

Everyone knows that when it comes to Valentine day , a present can never be short . Its the time where you buy your love ones gifts or make them gift to show how much you love and care for them , well , not exactly , but yeah , every boyfriend or girlfriend will be really happy to receive gift from their partner today . wahaha , well , if people can't afford one , at least write a card , as long as its something from you , your partner would be really happy , Its hard to find the present ur partner like . so i would really suggest , something meaninging . Like me , i receive a really really really meaningful gift this year . hahaha . Loving it .

For Him: Gucci Necklace

Baby got me this necklace for an early Valentine present . Isn't it nice ? i really really LOVE IT baby . Thank you very very much . It looks so shiny in the photo . wahaha . My 1st official valentine present ever . wahaha .

For Her : *Secret*

Haha . Its still waiting for its owner to come open the cover . haha . Hopefully you like it . i put in quite a bit of effort . haha . if not , then u can just keep it at my house . dun bring back home .

Too bad the owner can only open it on Tuesday , haha . bleah . Baby always go "you don't have to get me anything" but you are really happy when i get you something . lol . i don't mean anything , but i love getting you stuff , well , it might not be expensive and can be really cheap . But its really came from every part of my heart . haha .

Really really hope u will like it .

P.S. Baby , if you have the time , log onto your Pet society on facebook . i did something special for us . hehe . i think its kinda nice . Hope u like it .

Well , its 10pm now . i don't feel very happy *sigh* i dunno why . but yeah . hmmmm . Don't know .
After such a long time , blog updated ! :)

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 9:43 PM

February 05, 2009

its thursday
just had dinner
feel sleepy
always feel sleepy
bleah
so lazy getting so faat

hmm soo today
i was mean to baby;.. i scolded him..for saying things to suggest to eat...
but its hard topick.. when say something.. and go "Really?" or " last time say not nice".. just i dunooo
but i didnt mean toooo!!

wow.. been so so so so sos osos lazy.. need to do assignment

BABy i miss u
i miss u

haha u soo mean with valentines

haha
i cant wait...
lol.. no i dnt want to sound greedy
haha

but u know.. that u dnt need to give me anything
haha
i;m tryna talk to u on msn but i think u ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzz

u piglet

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 9:47 PM

Hmmmm .... Waitangi day tomorrow . what should i do tomorrow ?

Today was so freaking hot , i was perspiring my ass off . Damn NZ is like even hotter then other places and its surrounded by water .

Was deciding what to eat with lao po . then we decided sushi train . when we have already decided sushi train , we still discussing what to eat on the way we walk there . yeah . then i was thinking ...... maybe since other place . since we eat a lot of japanese already . and when i suggest japanese food , you said "japanese again ?!" bleah . then i mention Wagamama . but yeah , i remember lao po po saying that the food there is yuck . because its too salty , so when u said "we can go" i was like "no . u said the food was salty blah blah blah blah"

Then lao po po started to rage at me . bleah . wasn't t good feeling . no . seriously . i really mean , not a good feeling . bleah . so yeah . i quiet down for awhile . didn't want to mention anymore things .

At that moment , i really feel like shouting "you decide then ! i suggest and stuff u say this and that !" but yeah , i tot nah , its ok . who cares just eat anyway . as i can eat anything , nice or not nice .

order some seafood menrui . it was sweet . well , basically , its thai spicy noodle . from any thai shop . bleah . i was not very happy and then UGLY FOOD . how the hack do you think my day was ? *sigh* not a very good day isn't it .

Then i wasn't much in the mood after lunch , all i wan to do is go back to uni and just sit in IC and serve the net since the whether is so hot too . i dunno what happen , but in the end , we went to atrium , into this shop call E cube or something , lao po po bought her second asian dress , the 1st was bought by me ! opposite shop from it ... like yesterday ! yesterday one was pretty , today one was cute ! then yeah , went back up to IC . and i did nothing . Had NZ natural , so freaking small , no wonder nobody wants to buy their ice cream .

i did nothing whole day . i am so lazy nowadays . well . have always been .

Valentine days is coming . Everyone got anything in mind yet ? i have mine , almost done ! i think . Well , to think of it , i havent gotten any official valentine days present before yet . my ex was stupid enough to give me a "forever friend" bear . lol . which stupid person will give their boyfriend a "forever friend" bear ?! its that a hint for a break up ? lol .

Yeah , but i got a early valentine day present this year from lao po po . So nice ! love it !!!!! i will consider that official :D

To lao po po:

Ok , i see your evil eye , now your rage at me . wahaha . what else ? show me show me !

and stop saying sorry . u are my lao po , i won't get angry with you for this tiny things , WELL , i mean , won't be angry with you for very long . hahahahahaha . but yeah , you are forgiven . but yeah . i was kinda mad at you today . hahahaha .

P.S and that got nothing to do with food today . it just yuck !

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 8:57 PM

February 02, 2009

mmmmm
whaah quite a while since i come on here... kinda forgot about blog...but since i am very so bored
i remembered

Assignment 2 was dued today.. and we just got out next assignment... so slacking off.... need to study... Exam soon..BLEAH..

today was sooo freakin hot... i feel really tired...and i feel quite hungry right now.... i think i am getting a headache too

haha.. i was reading about worms.... coz i ammmm for never ending hungry.... and its starting to get annoying....like i can eat.. and then next thing i am hungry..and not just that my stomch GRUMBLES....wow...such a monster... i need to shrink my tum...or maybe i have worrms...eekkkkkk

anyways..... i got home... so freakn tired... my legs seemed like it just formed a new muscle.. it felt so stiff... came online... browsed..then showered..coz if i have an early night.. i want my hair to be DRY!!!!..

anyways after i remebered i had lollies i bought yesterday..haha lucky i remembered to give Leon his bag of lollies...damn his bag was huge..... better not get diabetes.... little kid...so funny...

yeah and SOMEONE.....my lao gong gong..has gone to some bar....HAHA nah some bar/rest/bubble tea... place..... mmmmm..sounds interesting....

i want to study..but i feel sooooo lazy.. im looking around my room... and bleah it looks so ugh.... i want to change my room..possibly even swap... there is no space for anything... i dnt even have room for clothes.. my clothes are stored in 3 areas... imagine looking for soemthing to wear..... haha my stomach just grumbled...oh there it goes again...

haha

anyways.....
hope dinner is done soon... might eat double bowl..LOL talk about shrinking my stomach..more like expanding...
ciao

the neverending story <3 15.07.08 <3 8:28 PM

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