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December 29, 2008
December 29, 2008
Today .....
My mobile can go online with ebuddy . WOW !!!!! I am surprise .
Had discussion to do 3 or 4 papers next semester with baby . Turn into a bad discussion . Hmm .
If i do 3 papers .
All i am thinkin about is i can spend more time with you . I can like join you in your lecture and stuff . You know . I consider quite a lot of factors . The only time we have together is after lecture then we wil probably be in IC0 studying again . But with all the papers you do . Compulsory tutorial and workshop . Hard to have time to do anything . Saturday and sunday definitely no .
If i do 3 , we might have some time to go for a walk , movie or maybe cup of bubble tea or coffee .
I am not dragging my time in uni . We plan before in IC2 remember ? 3 papers and i wil stil graduate same year as you .
If you want me just study and not haf any time for you . I admit i cant do it . I am not those kind of total geek that put studies before the girl i love , not jus love , but you know , you are more then that to me . So .... No ! Thats not me .
I dont want our everyday to be just "hows your lecture ?" "hows work ?" then back to silent and look back down at course book . I told you that and you went "ok ok , i get it"
Then You go "up to u , u decide how many papers you want to do . 3, 4, or 5." i really feel like *sigh*
I dunno wad i am doing is right anymore . Maybe its jus my own thinking . Maybe i mind to much . Consider too much . There is a pharse in chinese "when a boat arrive at the harbour it wil be straight" maybe i should learn it .
Then u ask me if i am unhappy with you . I am not . I dont even know what i am feeling right now .
Ok . I am watching comedy infront of tv . Typing this blog and a tears just drop . Going to stop writting .
But i decided to do for 4 papers now anyway .
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1:34 AM
December 28, 2008
December 28, 2008
wow . Its 4 am .
Woke up to go toilet and am unable to get back to sleep . Unlike new zealand that i can jump onto my computer and play some games , i got nothing like that at home in cambo . Well , a super old computer which is useless . Bro and sis sleeping . So i cant turn on da tv . Blogspot then appear in my mind . Hee .
With nothing to do and a blank mind . I dont know what to write .
A few more days before going back to new zealand , funny thing is i am the only one going back and the others are coming back for holiday . Summer school ! Might be fun .
Eldest would be coming back to cambo either on the 17 or 23 of Jan , second would be going back to Nz on the 31 of Jan and she is stil on stand by , if she dont get a place then even later . Which mean i wil be home alone . Wow . Bad news is my friends that stay near me has all gone back to their country for good , al my cousins are back in cambo , well , apart from that family which i am speechless towards . So .... Alone at home . Bleah . Oh well .
I am a person that have doubt in everything i do . Lets say if i walk into a exam room , i would probably have 75% confident and 25% doubt . Recently ...... I have no confident at all . Bleah . Dont know . If i am a metal bar , i would say i am at the point of breaking . Oh well .
After writtin so much . Am stil not sleepy . Bleah . Still having little fever and feeling unwell . Going to take panadol and try get back to sleep .
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10:59 AM
December 27, 2008
December 27, 2008
hmm .....
Feeling so lost and moody and sad .
No one to talk to . Its only until now that i realise that apart from cyrus . I got no friend to really talk to .
I am feeling quite weird . Very weird .
Oh well , i dun even noe how to describe how i feel now .
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11:33 PM
I jus realise i can log onto net with my mobile yesterday . I was kinda surprise .
This blog really gettin old n lonely ? I cant post any blog because i got no internet at home . Can hardly go to net cafe . Brick factory most of da time .
I am totally sick . I cant really eat , wil feel like vomitting . N got to kao huang yesterday night .
Lao po , i MISS you lots ! VERY MUCH !!!!! You went to Rotorua today , hope u had fun , but u haf 2 run into that jerk to spoil ur day . I hate him very much . So i over reacted today when you tell me about it . *Sorry* .
But i hope you understand why . All the things he said to me really make me hate him a lot . I jus hope him and me can be strangers . But he have to be my cousin . Makes me sick wen i tink of him .
Because you are my lao po , i dont want you to even contact him . Hope you understand .
Sigh . I miss you . This month has been totally terrible + horrible without you . Not being able to see you and hold on to you is so bad . Wil be bac in afew days .
I Love you lots baby !!!!!
*sigh* am bored and moody *sigh* feel so .......
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6:56 PM
December 22, 2008
December 22, 2008
Soooo its monday today, today have been so lazy.. but then i have been doing work too!!!!.
had to clean mummies deck.. lol.. i've only been on her deck less than 5 times. haha..but so dirty.. esp after we got it tiled...all the dirt ..yuck yuck....
now i am cooking din dins... Pork 2night.. some fry asparagus.. yum.... haha.. i'm thinking bout makiing soup..but i not sure what soup to make....
yaya....... next week my baby comes back!!!!.. hehe so excited........
its hot right now
have to hurry cook..so i can have shower...then off to shopping hahahahaha!!!!....
mm mummy left me some money this morning on my table...wOoO.....haha.. thanks mummy!!!
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6:18 PM
December 20, 2008
December 20, 2008
soooo... yeah its 10.31pm. Saturday...20 Dec..
am totally bored,
lol
and yeah
this blog is getting lonely and old.
i'm glancing around my room...and so much rubbish
haha my bed is not made...it hasnt been made since months ago.. i have clothes, tons of pillows ( why do i have so many pillows??) all over my bed....oh look my sock just fell on the ground...... i was too lazy to pull the laptop charger under the bed so its over the bed...... yeah
and on the ground OMG... i feel like such a dirty sloth..but i'm so tired.. i dnt want to clean.. if i do.... i will make a bigger mess...coz then when i start... i have to do everything... dam...
so far... iam starting to try and learn some mandarin..but its really hard... hard...!!!!!! and i'm so forgetful... i'm tryinggg... tryinnng.....
wait till my lao gong gets back..he can be my lao shi......and i can be the xuesheng..........Wo de lao shi zhen hao.......he can teach me... btw.. i learnt that... haha..... i know the word student and teacher now!!! hahaha and yes that phrase... i learn that too..wahaha... ( ihope its right...shaming if its wrong!!!)..but thats ok.. i;m learning!!!!
slowly slowly...
so anyways....my sis and her husband not going back cambo no more... coz they both stupid.....
don't think before making arrangements... and stupid bro in law....jeez...
oh well... that means i wnt be getting my dutyfree...damn.. i was looking forward to my new fragrance too... hahah
all good....
hmmm i think i have rabbled on ... hahahaha... myabe post again....
BYE BYE
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10:31 PM